Wind Beneath My Wings

Posted by A on the A& Marcy Admiration Board

April 17, 2001

Debbie suggested I take a look at this space a couple of days ago, and I wish I hadn't waited til today to find the time. To say it lifted my spirits would be a big understatement. I've been fighting the urge to go check out these boards where Roy and/or my work as Roy is getting slammed, since you can't get some of that stuff out of your mind - ever - once it has been taken in, and its hard to see much of it as constructive, though some of it might be. The thing is, all of us who do this kind of work are under a lot of pressure already, much of it self-generated, and I think you can get to the point where taking on even a little more doubt can start to undo you. So I've been keeping my distance, despite being curious. To anyone who has cared about this enough to have raised a protest on my behalf - I can only say, "Thank you from the bottom of my heart." And just for the record, Roy does have a hard time getting his words out occasionally, but its by design. Unlike Cruz, he's not a man who has found a sense of fulfillment in his life. He feels he has blown it so far, and its a struggle for him to try to undo the damage of his early mistakes. The way he fights to find the words is actually one of my favorite things about him, even though there's a school of thought that says you're not supposed to do that in daytime TV. If he ever gets to the point where he feels truly proud of himself, he'll probably get a lot more smooth. But thanks again for sharing your thoughts. There's a lot of kindness and nourishment here, and it means the world to me.

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